I hear you Universe …

And now I have to stop.
Because the more I seem to move and plan and decide and organize… the more I am sent back to the drawing board of life with cancellations, obstacles and generally things not going the way they’re supposed to, the way I wanted them to go.
So that's it.
Stop, Isaya, stop trying.
OMGoddess what?
But trying is the only thing I know how to…